Finding My Authentic Voice

As I move into the New Year, I am faced with some decisions about my work. Do I continue moving forward with a “business as usual” attitude, or do I find ways to expand, integrate and enhance the work I am doing?

What would that look like?

The question was initially prompted by several things.

First, I had a spiritual reading several months ago where my friend Cheryl channeled some information about how my work was about to change. The “tried and true” method that I had been using – that made complete sense and would continue to work – could keep me moving forward on my path. It would be safe and predictable.

She also saw, however, a separation of sorts from my local community.

It wasn’t physically moving, but more of a “closing one door to open another.” The “closing” door would be diminishing the energy I put forth to create and strengthen my local professional network.

The door that would be opening would be reaching a much larger audience with my writing, coaching media appearances and intuitive work. She suggested my role would change and expand more into my spiritual, intuitive work…and less of the mainstream writing and media appearances I had been doing.

It sounded to me like my intuitive, spiritual tarot side was about to come out of the closet.

Another thing that happened to confirm this shift was when my friend Laura said that I was entering a "Seven" year. In Numerology you can add up the digits of your birthday and the current year to get a single digit, which indicates in which numerological year you are.

For example, if your birthday is June 15, you would be in a Six year (6/15/2010 = 6+1+5+2+0+1+0 = 15 = 1 + 5 = 6). Each of the single-digit years has significant energies that carry you throughout that year.

From the information Laura sent me, my 2010 Seven year “represents a time of inner reflection, much like taking a sabbatical…This is a wonderful year to ask important questions like: What is my life purpose? What do I want my life to be like?” Pretty deep stuff.

The third thing that happened was a conversation I had with my husband Tom. When I explained some frustrations I was having with my work and the possibility of taking some time away from my media appearances, he was in full support.

“Why don’t you take this as a sabbatical year?” he asked. “Because you are so achievement-oriented, the toughest thing for you will be to slow down.”

He is so right! I am constantly making lists, staying busy, striving for more. What would my life look like if I slowed down? Could I really do it?

What would this sabbatical, this open space, allow to come forth in me? More time to dedicate toward the study and practice of my yoga? Expanding my knowledge of intuition and tarot cards? Possibly studying the Course in Miracles?

As you can see, my Type-A personality is eager to fill up this time with more stuff. Again, the discipline is not to be afraid of the open spaces and see what is there…which may end up being nothing! How will that feel?

I haven’t made any huge decisions regarding career shifts yet, but I am adopting the perspective of deepening my authentic voice in any writing, teaching, coaching and tarot card readings that I do. That is, I will come to each of my commitments with passion, patience and authenticity.

If something doesn’t fit into this framework, then that is a clear sign to question and possibly release that commitment.

Where will it lead me? I will try to release the outcome and continue walking forward with authenticity and faith.